Moving on (getting over you) nov. 11, 2013

I only have two words for you. . .
-IM DONE- After everything I've done for you every chance that i gave to you and yet you still break my heart... BUT ITS OVER!!! Finally I've realized I don't deserve this and honestly you won't deserved me Yeah, I still love you and I probably will for a long time But I can't stay here anymore It hurts too much
I guess this is . . .MOVING ON. . .
I guess I'm tired of being the last thing on your mind I should have known from the start you'd go and break my heart You took my love and threw it away as if it were nothing. . . To me. . You're my everything but to you I'm just another meantime girl. . . You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve

Why am I such a fool?

Now I believe it when people say love is blind coz I must have been blind to love a person like you It finally hit me that you didn't care when you walked away and never looked back. . 
I wanna do exactly what you did to me. . lead you on. . make you fall for me. . then just let you go. . . --> EFFORTLESSLY!!! Suddenly. . I'm hating myself for everything I've ever felt for you. . Sometimes I wish I could go back and erase the day I met you. .
but I will never regret loving you
only believing you love me too. . .

I made a mistake
Thinking you were my world. .
you won't get away with this. . .
You messed with the wrong girl. . .

Slandering my name
just for your own gain
dream on baby
I'm gonna make you
fell my pain

Thank you for ripping my heart out,
Stamping on it
and breaking it in half
Now I know how much you care

Watching you walk out of my life
doesn't make me feel bitter
rather than makes me realize that. . .
. . .if I wanted so much to be
with the wrong person,
how great it will be
with the right one who comes along. . .

There is no medication for this illness
no known cure other than
--TIME --

Maybe someday
I'll get back my heart
Maybe someday. . .
Ill get back my pride. . .

Maybe somewhere
down the road
I'll forget to remember you. . .

One day you'll seek
love and be sorry that. . .
you threw mine away. . .

And one day you'll realized 
you could have been with me. . .

I hope someday you'll realized
what a fool you were
to let someone like me
slip from your grip
and that you'll see that
the one you've been looking for
was the one
who set you free. . .

One day. . .
I will be ale to look you
in the eyes, without feeling
the pain you've caused . .

One day. . .
I will be able to stand
next to you without wanting
to hold your hand. . .

One day. .
I'll get over you. . .


Someday – Nina

Someday you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i can’t

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know i’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday


But now
I know you can’t tell
I’m down,and i’m not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won’t have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday. .

"meantime girl and quotes of being hurt"

MEANTIME GIRL

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your friends  party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She`s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find ''The One". You know, the one you keep in the MEANTIME. 

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in the light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable. Doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, nice and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine. 

You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretense to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you. And you know that you don`t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. 

It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool.. why can't all women be like that?! 

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't.. because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought) you know that it's really not fair. 

You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs - she could really play hard-to-get. Bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has big birthmark on her forehead, or just really not that type. 

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman. 

You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. 

She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. 

Mainly, she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be SPECIAL to someone, too. We all do. 

She has feelings. She has heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. 

She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is. - Anonymous

Being Hurt :)

When Someone Walks Out Of Your Life, Let Them. They Are Just Making More Room For Someone Better To Walk In.

Missing Someone Who Doesn't Miss You Back In Return Is Probably One Of The Worst Feelings Anyone Can Feel.

The Opposite Of Love Is Not Hate But To Avoid. If U Dont Love Me Then Hate Me But Plz Dont Avoid Me.. It Hurts...! :'(

I Used To Miss You So Much, But It Never Seemed Like You Missed Me. I Guess Because Of That, I Stopped Missing You.

Sometimes You Just Need To Distance Yourself From People. If They Care, They'll Notice. If They Don't, You Know Where You Stand.

You Always Get Hurt The Moment You Begin To Care.

Sometimes Good People Need To Leave Your Life To Make Room For Better People To Come In.

It's Funny How You Think You Actually Mean Something To Someone, & They Just Turn Around & Prove You Wrong.

It's Ironic How Sometimes, The Harder You Want To Avoid Something, The Quicker It Will Get To You.

When A Person Cannot Answer Directly To Your Question Probably The Answer Is Too Painful For You To Know Or Too Hard For Them To Admit...:'(

No One In D World Has D Ability 2stop Their Tears When Their Loved Ones Say 2 Them "Dont Leave Me , I Need You" Or "Leave Me I Dint Need You

Some Dreams Weren't Meant To Come True....I Learned That From You.

It's Really Painful To Say Goodbye To Someone That You Don't Want To Let Go But Its Even More Painful To Ask Someone To Stay If They Never Wanted To Stay.

Unfortunately, We Believe The Liars, Trust The Backstabbers, And Like The Heartbreakers We Are All Just Stories In The End. 

Drifting Apart From People You Once Used To Be So Close With Sucks. 

It Sucks When You Miss Someone Who Does Not Miss You Back. 

There's Always Going To Be That One Person You Always Want To Be With Even After You Find Out They Don't Want To Be With You. 

My Feelings For You Are Like A Boomerang. Whenever I Try To Get Rid Of It By Throwing It All Away, It Constantly Finds A Way To Get Back. 

You Have Given And Taken A Lot From Me. You Gave Me A Reason To Smile, But You Took Away My Ability To Love Anybody Else. 

They Say Time Heals All Wounds, But All It's Done Is Give Me More Time To Think About How Much I Miss You. 

I Hate Those Moments Right Before You Go To Sleep, When You Are Forced To Think About All The Things You Tried So Hard To Forget. 

People Think That If You Love Somebody Hard Enough, Then Everything Is Just Gonna Work Out. People Are Wrong 

Who Knew That The Person That Kills Me Inside Is The Person I Need In Order To Live? 

People Cry Not Because Love Ends, But Because It Still Continues, Even If It's Over. 

Forgetting Someone Is Impossible. You Remember Everything. You May Not Think Of Them For Years At A Time, But You Don't Know How To Forget. 

No Matter What They Do Or What They Say, Or How Many Times They Hurt You, You Can't Let Them Go Because They Just Mean So Much To You. 

When U Get Attracted To Sum1. U Will Realize What Is Love.. When That Sum1 Starts Avoiding U.. U Will Realize What Is Life. 

Loneliness Is A Special Enjoyment When Chosen By Ourself..!! But Hard To Digest When Gifted By Others...

Pleasure Of Love Lasts But A Moment, Pain Of Love Lasts A Lifetime.

For Once In My Life, I'm At A Loss Of Words.The Truth Of The Matter Is Being With You Was The Only Time I Have Ever Been Happy. 

Sometimes Life Isn't Fair. We Don't Always End Up With The Person We Thought Was "The One". 

Biggest Mistake You Can Make Is To Care For Someone More Than Yourself, Because Then You Are Just Setting Yourself Up For Disappointment. 

Boundaries Are Necessary So That You Can Protect Yourself, Because Once You're Broken, You'll Never Be Fully Fixed.

Loving Someone Who Doesn't Feel The Same Way Is Like Using A White Crayon On A White Paper. It's Always Invisible.

The Worse Thing Is Caring About Someone, Wondering How They Are When The Truth Is, They've Stopped Wondering About You A Long Time Ago.

Who Said Water Helps In Putting Off Fire?If So,Then. Why Don't Tears Heal The Burn In One's Heart!

It Is Easy To See When Someone Is Happy , But Hard To See When They Are Faking Their Happiness Just To Hide Their Broken Heart . </3

No Matter How Bad Someone Makes You Cry, Hurts You, Or Makes U Feel The Worse U Can Be You Get Back Up And Thank Them For Making You Stronger Each Time <3

Love Is The Slowest Suicide, And You Can't Stop It, Even Though It's Killing You On The Inside, You Just Have To Live With All The Pain Until It's Finally Over 

I Love You And That Is True, But That Is The Difference Between Me And You. My Love Is Real , To You Its Just Another 3 Words You Say 

Why Is It That The Person That Makes You The Happiest Is The Same Person That Hurts You The Most? 

I May Not Be Prefect, But I'm The Best You'll Ever Have. You'll Realize It The Day I Stop Coming Back. 

The Worst Thing About Falling For Someone Is Thinking They Will Catch You In Their Arms But Instead They Watch You Fall And Hit The Ground... Broken. 

My Eyes Are Hurting Cause I Cant See You,, My Arms Are Empty Cause I Cant Hold You,, My Lips Are Cold Cause I Cant Kiss You,, My Heart Is Broken & I Miss You <3

It Just Makes Me Realize How Weird Life Is... That The Exact Same Moment That I Meant Nothing To You, You Meant Everything To Me...

Sometimes It Hurts To Care So Much. You Wonder Why You Bother Yet Continue To Do So. Wish I Could Be Like Others Who Are Able To Easily Stop Caring & Move On.

A Heart Dies, When Its Not Able To Share Its Feelings But A Heart Kills It Self When Another Heart Does Not Understand Its Feeling...!!"

Why Do We Love People Who Don't Love Us Back, Why Do We Try For People Who Don't Care, Why Do People Pretend To Be Your Friends If They're Really Not !!! 

My Silence Spoke A Thousand Words...But She Never Heard Them

Don't Trust Too Much, Don't Love Too Much And Don't Hope Too Much .. Because That Too Much Can Hurt You In The Same Way So Much !

I Walk Around With A Smile On My Face, But Underneath Is The Lonely Tears That Only Come Out At Night After Everyone Goes To Sleep...Praying Things Get Better!

It Hurts To Love Someone And Not Be Loved In Return, But What Hurts More Is To Love Someone, And Never Find The Courage To Let Them Know How You Feel. 

It's Hard To Wait Around For Something You Know Might Never Happen; But It's Even Harder To Give Up When You Know It's Everything You Want.

I Don’t Believe That Time Heals Everything. Minutes, Hours, Months, And Years Just Give You More Time To Realize What You’re Missing.

Breaking Up Is Just Like Having The Worst Nightmare After Having The Best Dream 
 

The Hardest To Do Is Waking Up Without You.

It's Amazing How Someone Can Break Your Heart And You Can Still Love Them With All The Little Pieces 

I Would Give Up Everything For One Moment With You; For One Moment Is Better Than A Lifetime Of Not Knowing You 

In My Dreams You're Mine Forever 

The Worst Feeling In The World Is Giving All The Love You Have And Knowing It Will Never Be Returned 

True Love Will Never Fade Unless It Was A Lie 

You Hurt Me More Than I Deserve, How Can You Be So Cruel? I Love You More Than You Deserve, Why Am I Such A Fool? 

Sometimes The Memories Are Worth The Pain 

A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I Tried, Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I Cried 

I Hate This Feeling, It's One I Know All To Well, It's A Thing Called Heartbreak And It Hurts Like Hell 

Where There Is Love, There Is Pain 

Love Is Like Heaven But Can Hurt Like Hell 

Nothing Hurts More Than Realizing She Meant Everything To You And You Meant Nothing To Her 

I Miss You More Than You'll Ever Know 

Once Upon A Time I Was Falling In Love, But Now Im Falling Apart 

You Taught Me How To Love; You Taught Me How To Live; You Taught Me How To Laugh; You Taught Me How To Cry, But When You Left, You Forgot To Teach Me How To Forget You.

You Never Know What You Have Until You Lose It, And Once You Lose It, You Can Never Get It Back.

My Heart Was Taken By You... Broken By You... And Now It Is In Pieces Because Of You. 

Love Is Like Falling Down... In The End You're Left Hurt, Scarred, And With A Memory Of It Forever. 

You're The One Who Broke My Heart, You're The Reason My World Fell Apart, You're The One Who Made Me Cry, Yet I'm Still In Love With You And I Don't Know Why. 

A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried, Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know I've Cried. 

Wanting Him Is Hard To Forget, Loving Him Is Hard To Regret, Losing Him Is Hard To Accept, But Even With All The Hurt I've Felt, Letting Go Is The Most Painful Yet. 

Sometimes The Memories Are Worth The Pain. 

Sometime You Just Have To Hold Your Head Up High, Blink Away The Tears And Say Good-Bye. 

For A Few Minutes You Made Me Feel As Though I Actually Meant Something To Someone. 

We Are Afraid To Care To Much, For Fear That The Other Person Does Not Care At All. 

People Think It Is Holding On That Makes You Stronger, But Sometimes It's Letting Go. 

I Made A Choice To Finally Let Go, Because I Can't Stand The Pain, It's Time For My Last Tear To Fall And Smile Again. 

I Cried Today... Not Because I Miss You... Or Even Wanted You... But Because I Realized I'm Gonna Be All Right Without You. 

I Wish He Meant It When He Kissed Me Cause Then I Could Look Back And See Someone Who Loved Me But I Can Only Go Back And See Someone Who Used Me. 

You Always Say You Hate To See Me Hurt, And You Hate To See Me Cry. So All Those Times That You Hurt Me, Did You Close Your Eyes? 

So... From Now On... When You Think Of Me... Just Remember That I Could've Been The Best Thing You Ever Had. 

You Hurt Me More Then I Deserve, How Can You Be So Cruel? I Love You More Then You Deserve, Why Am I Such A Fool? 

You Asked Me What Was Wrong, I Smiled And Said Nothing, When You Turned Around And A Tear Came Down And I Whispered To Myself... Everything Is. 

You Wonder Why I Don't Talk To You Anymore And Please Believe Me When I Say It's Not That I Don't Want To, It's Just That Everything I Want To Say I Can't Tell You Anymore. 

I Don't Know Which I Would Rather Believe... That You Never Did Care Or That You Eventually Stopped. 

Hold My Hand, Just One More Time, So I Can Remind Myself Why It Is That I Can't Get Over You. 

I Think Its Time I Let You Go... And That Is Hard To Do Because Part Of Me Will Be In Love With You For The Rest Of My Life. 

While I Was Holding On All You Did Was Let Go. 

Sometimes It's Better To Be Alone. No One Can Hurt You That Way. 

I Just Wonder How Many People Never Get The One They Want, But End Up With The One They're Supposed To Have.

Date . .Simba. Ewan XD

Last day. . 

Until here all the happiest memories we've shared together. 

-Nagsimba
-punta market ng bauang (nagpagupit ka)
-nag ikot-ikot sa market (sumakay sa likod mo ulit) XD
-hinatid moko.
-umuwi kana.

END OF SUMMER


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I hope you doing well bal. Godbless !!!

GOODBYE! </3

Just because my eyes don't tear,
doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry

If just because I comes off a little strong,
doesn't mean that nothing's wrong

If it's not you, it will never be you,
no matter how much I love you...

But if you really are for me,
then, we will always be
no matter how i set you free...

What I am supposed to do?
Just when I thought 
I was going to get you back,
you go away from me again...

If it's over,
 give me the last chance to say goodbye,
but don't think that
I don't care at all,

coz that goodbye is my simple way of saying
I LOVE YOU. . .
but i have to SACRIFICE. . .

jolibee kanina.
 libre mo. haha. 2 fries and 2 mcfloat
snmahan ulit akong nag antay
nag ikot ikot dun sa gilid nang simbahan
(binuhat moko) sumakay sa likod mo
nag ikot sa plaza
 naglaro (nung ginuhit mong square sa upuan)
nakita tayo mama. .
naauna kami
umuwi kana. .

SORRY XD . . .

Gusto ko na sanang sumuko eh pero nung nakasama ulit kita kanina parang ang hirap gawin nakakalito nga talaga. :(. Bal ang saya ko pagkasama kita. Sana naman wag kanang mawala pa kung pwede lang. :'(

 :)

Akala ko uuwi kana kasi nakapagbayad na tayo ng pamasahe  sa bus pero sinamahan mo ako dito bauang kasi medyo matagal tagal pa paghihintay ko ng klase ko sa computer.. bumama na tayo ng bus, natuwa naman  ako sempre.haha . Nagpasyal sa palengke pero di rin nagtagal nagpabili kalang ng makakain lumpia ata yun pumunta na ng  plaza nag  ikot saglit at pumasok sa simbahan para manalangin.


yung pray ko:
  Lord, Salamat sa araw nato nakapunta ako ng simbahan na di inaasahan  tapos si bal pa kasama ko ito yung kaunahang pumasok ako sa simbahan kasama yung taong gusto ko.haha. Nagpapasalamat ako sa lahat ng biyaya na binigay nyo sa akin. Sa mga kasalanan ko pong nagawa na di ko sinasadya humihingi po ako ng kapatawaran sana maatawad niyo ako.
Tumawag si dad so kailangan ko ng pumuta at ihatid ka sa kanto. hebehe

Minsan alam mo o gaya ngayon nagdadalawang isip  parin ako kung ano ba talaga tong nararamdaman ko kung ipagpapatuloy ko ba. Hindi pa nga talaga ako handa natatakot parin akong masaktan ulit. Iisipin ko nalang siguro na ako yung kapatid mo or pinakamalapit mong kaibigan para di ako aasa  at masaktan talaga. So siguro pwede naman na makipagdate ako sa iba? date lang naman eh para di ako masanay na ikaw lagi yung  kasama ko.Baka kasi din hahanaphanapin kita. ah! basta! ewan ko! NATATAKOT KASI AKO eh! :'(



Wag nalang siguro ikaw bal? Pero sino naman kasi? Ngayong nakilala na kita ng lubos. Saka naman magbabago isip ko.

Im not expected talaga na ganyan ka pala. Not compare to other guy na basta ibang -iba ugali nila kaysa sayo. Hangang-hanga nga ako hindi lang sa cutan mo kunti pati ikaw kung ano ka.

Crush lang naman kita dati dahil cute ka pero habang tumatagal na nakilala kta na ngayon na nakakasama pa di lang ata paghanga eh. Kaya ayaw kong ipagpatuloy o patagalin man to kasi di ko talaga alam eh :'(

Alam ko maraming girls diyan pero di ko naman hinihiling na maging isa sa mga basta. Tulad nung pic mo and pic ko na enedit ko dati pero di ko na ibinigay sayo kasama nung gift ko sana. May nakasulat dun sa baba na "Di ko hinihiling maging tayo. Ang gusto ko lang na sana maging isa sa mga taong importante sa buhay mo" yan yun nakasulat nandito pa nga yun eh tinago ko lang. Nakita nadin yun nila mama pero wala lang sa kanya. :) Hindi ko alam kung nagkatotoo ba talaga yun pero sana naman kasi close naman na tayo, compare nung dati na di tayo nagkasama diba?.

-Nauna na kami sa labas pero nagtext ka na nasa COE buildingg ka sila Aiza naman at Jerald may pupuntahan sila kaya nagpaalam  na ako sa  kanila na pumunta dun kasi pinapapunta mo din ako. Yun lumabas na sa school kasama mga kaibigan  mo. Pero nauna nadin tayo at naglakad to town.

MALAS!!! tsk. :-/

Meron ako ngayon. I feel talaga kanina kasi sumasakit puson ko. Wahaha.
Wala  kang money sabi mo kaya ako nalang ulit nanlibre sayo pero may share kanamang 20 kahit papano. Haha. Binigay ko 100 pero parang kulang ata kaya  dinagdagan ko nalang ng 50 may pera pa naman ako eh kaya ayos lang basta meron pero pag wala magtiyaga ka ah diba? hehe. Bait ko nuh! :P.

Binili mo 1 fries 2 reg. drinks and 2 sundae :)

-Naglakad ulit papunta bus stop  at sumakay na. Nandun din si Billy nakasakayan natin kaya dapat mag share ng blessings hehe.

#SALAMAT SA TIME NA BINIBIGAY MO SAKIN AT SA PAGKANTA BASTA SA LAHAT NG GINAGAWA MO NA NAKAPAGPAPASAYA   SAKIN. Hehe.

LOVE? ang gulo niyan basta dimo alam kong tama ba o mali to basta gusto mo masaya ka :).

ANO BA TALAGA? HAHA. OO o HINDI? EWAN!!!!!! TAMA o MALI? !!! zzzz -_- tulog na ako itutulog ko nalang. 

-10:36 pm <3 or </3?????? =  pipiliin ko? sempre ♥ :) para mas masaya.

I ♥ ♫ (music) Cause my music is you,
I ♥ ♥ (heart) Cause  my heart is you and
I ♥ Ü  (you) Cause all i want is you. :)